Disaster

..You know that person? The one who had one too many to drink and made a mess of his/herself?
And remember the wedding I've mentioned in like, every previous post I've made?
Well I was THAT person at THAT wedding; fml.

I should have expected it, really, with my luck and judgment, why shouldn't I have been the crazy one?

So the evening started off pretty well. The wedding ceremony was actually quite quaint despite the large number of people, and oh my gawsh the couple looked BEAUTIFUL. Seriously, they looked like they dropped 10 lbs for the day, though that might have not been intentional (stress?)..

My party and I sat in the back so:

Our view as bride and groom stood at the altar.

...Anddd thennn we headed to the cocktail hour/reception. Ack.

During cocktail hour a few of us girls decided to start off the night with shots; only the bar didn't do shots and so we were left with dry glasses of tequilas equaling to maybe two-ish shots a glass.

The agreement was to down half and to pass the glass over to someone who didn't have any, but of course those "who didn't have any" suddenly disappeared, and so I started with two. Then one of the gals decided (after a sip) that the drink wasn't for her and passed it to me. There's four.

We move onto the dinner, where at this point I realize that all I had that day was oatmeal. In addition, I had nothing the previous day because I was fasting for the couple. It was too bad that at this point my alcohol induced mind decided it didn't really care. Yeap, +2. 

Now I sat down at my table where the waiter proceeded to take down dinner orders, and my friend (Jenny) and I schemed on the fastest possible way to make it to the open bar. Not before taking a photo or two in the bathroom of course: 

Notice my posture? Yeah, the "I'm goneee and slouching" pose, while Jenny (jsquared921.blogspot.com) looks pristine. 

We make our way to the bar where we down two shots of (absolut) vodka (now at eight); by the time we make it back to our table the appetizers are out and waiting. I swear our incentive was to beeline to the bar any chance we had, because right after our appetizers, WE HEAD BACK. This time is the return of tequila! Ten.

After ten, dinner's ready - in my normal state of mind I would've realized not to eat it because it was BURNT:

This was the GOOD side, as in the other sides of the vegetables were completely the color of those "grill marks". 

- however, I was not in the right state of mind and was starving so..

Then, the world was woozy and spinning and I've added to my list of realizations that it's been a year since I've drunk any alcohol, and it finally hit me. THIS WAS A HUGE MISTAKE (No crap Sherlock). 

What made the whole situation better? If you guessed that I felt everything come up, then yes, you are correct! 

I grabbed the ice bucket in which the wine bottle was sitting, pulled it out and did my thang. No embarrassment, just "please let me survive and sleep!" 

Thankfully I wasn't alone; I have amazing people in my life who escorted me to the bathroom and held my hair back (while giving me glorious back rubs), as I paid tribute to the porcelain queen. 

The friends I originally came to the wedding with even let my other friend and I stay at their place, while they stayed at their parents! I mean who does that? They entrusted their living space to a drunk, plus one, just so we could be comfortable! My heart explodes every time I recall this information. 

Yes, I was embarrassed. This happened amongst church people after all, on a Saturday, right before church. But at the end of the day (or morning), I wasn't ashamed of my shame because well, I DESERVED it. 

Not only did I down those shots with the assumption I could handle it, I was vocally expressing my excitement for who THAT PERSON would be. I really feel like God taught me a lesson in hypocrisy and pride. I'm pretty sure drinking is definitely now out of my life. 

Additional pictures:

View of the dinner table (&best picture I took all night haha).

Appetizers! And that wine bucket...

Charm✌참

Choices, choices

Of course. OF COURSE I'd wake up with a HUGE cold sore today with a wedding to attend just tomorrow.
Oh woe is me, but am I surprised?
Not in the slightest.
On to bigger (hardly possible with the monstrous size of this cold sore) and BETTER things..
What to wear?

Now, I'm hardly the wedding expert; I think I've been to a handful at most in my life, so they've always been a go, eat, leave type of thing for me. Well, the wedding I'm about to attend seems more, how to put this, invested in by the couple. Now, I don't mean to disrespect those who's weddings I've attended (because really I don't), but the wedding tomorrow seems to be on a higher scale in terms of the amount that was paid in money and time. They have their own website for goodness sake! Not that there's anything atypical about that, just that, well I guess I've never experienced such a couple so dedicated (and a super cute/perfect couple they are).
So yeah, it makes me just a wee bit more anxious about tomorrow. Especially my state of dress - what if I'm too formal? Not formal enough? And on top of everything, in terms of weather in the east coast, it's a frigging winter wedding! Darker colors? Boots? AUUUUUUGH. I. DON'T. KNOW.

I've basically narrowed it down to two dresses - working with what I have (as indicated in the previous post). (Sorry about the craptastic picture btw):

1. A damask printed black and white dress

2. A sparkly charcoal shirt tucked into a black skirt.

No, definitely not the best of choices, but what is a girl to do..Sigh. 

My qualms with choice one is that it's a size too big and so it's not as flattering as it should be; also, it's black and white and I don't want to risk wearing white at tomorrow's wedding (invested, as mentioned). That being said, the fact that it's a size bigger makes it SUPER comfortable. On the chance (ha!) that I food coma tomorrow, no belly would protrude as it'll stay hidden underneath all that beauuuutiful fabric. Qualms with choice two is that, well, it's super dark. Granted the wedding tomorrow is in the evening, but weddings are supposed to be like the opposite of funerals! And the outfit looks pretty casual..I hope to fix that up with a blazer; maybe I'll add some burgundy leggings in my pathetic spruce up attempt? (Ick, maybe not).

ANYWAYS, I'm leaning towards two, simply because it's more flattering and fitting for the after party to occur. Idk, I guess we'll see what happens.

On other matters, guess what I picked up?!

My jourrrrrrrrnal huzzah! (Apologizes for craptastic picture number two):

Markings by CR Gibson

I went to Staples in an attempt to find something there and I did! But, and a big but at that (heh), I totally overlooked the fact that it's LEATHER ugh. That may drive me to return it, we'll see. Being vegan is so much easier when it comes to food!

I finally moved my lazy butt to take a profile picture this morning; I don't like taking self pictures when the sun sets because the quality becomes terrible, so if I didn't do it in the morning, I wouldn't have at all. My eyes kind of bug me out in the photo because I was wearing my Geo angel greys. I guess I didn't really realize just how unnatural they made my gaze look until this photo. Oh well, it'll do until I take a better picture (aka overcome another bought of laziness). 

Charm✌참

Day well concluded

..Kind of, heh.

Just got home and though I was highly disappointed by the limited selection (boo), I ultimately ended up picking out things that I NEEDED, which is always a plus! No money wasted!

L to R) First Row: Cute "cosmetic mirror" for closeups on vanity, up&up contact solution (2 pack), up&up shaving cream, up&up toothbrush (4 pack); Second Row: Cotton Swabs, brow razors, disposable razors

My Target didn't even have disposables for women so I picked up the disposables for men haha. Tomato tomäto, no? 

Oh, I also picked up headphones, but I ended up finding the ones I "lost" in my computer desk drawer. Though I find that if there's one thing I can never have enough of, it's headphones. Maybe its because I have to use in ear buds since my ear holes are smaller (the smallest buds usually fit perfectly), and I'm stuck with no music if I don't have a pair available. 

Originally I wanted to pick up a personal journal to (kind of) chronicle more spontaneous thoughts/ideas, but alas, that did not work out too well. I also wanted to pick up a dress for the upcoming wedding on Saturday, but that too did not work out well. I think it's a sign from God to work with what I have. 

Practicality is key it seems! Not that there is any complaint from me (aka my wallet). Hehe.

Ddalki✌딸기

Public personal content?

I've been getting lazy with my personal blogging on tumblr (public blogging's been dead for me for a while); a friend's creation of a fashion/beauty blog (jsquared921.blogpost.com) has motivated me to get back into the writing grind.
The public state of this blog will hopefully keep me accountable in writing regularly..
HOPEFULLY..

I've been so lethargic and unmotivated lately. Even doing the bare minimum is a choreee -  fuddgetabout working out, tidying up, and makeup!
For example: today?
Stayed home with the excuse of a doctor's appointment - DESPITE the fact that the appointment was scheduled way before my classes. Then, came home; and now sitting in front of the TV, making a blog to feign productivity.
Oh, such is my life (these days anyways).

Planning to head out to pick up a couple of necessities - makeup remover wipes (ha! like they'd be put to use anytime soon), back up headphones (managed to lose a pair and am on my backup now), contact solution (eek! yo neccessito), yam noodles?, a physical journal?, EYEBROW RAZOR ACK! (managed to somehow misplace that too). Pretty catepillar eyebrows are a contradiction and I have a wedding to head to this Saturday.

We shall see where my lazy state of being takes me today. I need something to get me out of this viscious "there's tomorrow" cycle. Alriiiight, can't hold in the contents of my bladder anymore, must.makeit.to.bathroom. Au revoir~

(Then eat "breakfast" and head out...or try anyways).

Charm✌참