The Joys of Unemployment

Dang. Why is it that when I'm working I dream of freedom, and when I have it, I regret it so much?
Aka, I'm kind of regretting quitting my full-time job cause unemployment is SO.FRIGGING.BORING.

Maybe its because I'm a very low-risk, routine sort of person, but I feel like I'm going insane. Its been a little over a month since I've been back from Korea, so I've been unemployed for a total of two months. If I don't count the month vacation in Korea, then I haven't been unemployed for that long, but it feels like forever.  I've been sending out applications like a madman. Haven't got one callback yet. When I look at it objectively, one month with no callbacks doesn't sound abnormal at all, but my self-confidence is already decreasing.

In the short time I've been unemployed, I've managed to:
1. Screw up my sleep cycle - have been sleeping at 6 AM and waking up ~ 1 PM
2. Gained weight - I feel it when I wear clothes (talk about even less confidence)
3. Spend way over budget - Cause there is nothing to do without spending money when meeting with friends ):

I want to tear my hair out in frustration. I already feel like a helpless loser, so I'm shaking at the thought that unemployment may go on for months and months. I've decided to try and get a routine going, so now I'm vowing to get in bed by 11 PM, so I can actually wake up in the morning.
I've also decided to join a gym, so I actually paid for one at a community college within walking distance and everything, but it turns out I SIGNED UP FOR A GYM AT A COLLEGE WITH THE SAME NAME THOUSANDS OF MILES AWAY T-T. Like WHAT. IS. MY LIFE?!
Can't even sign up for the gym right. I emailed the staff there for a refund, and couldn't find a signup option for the college near my house, so I'm going to stop by tomorrow. I've already tried to implement an exercise routine by going out for walks in the park, but it just doesn't work for me. I never get motivated enough and end up sitting at home doing nothing all day.

I've been good with applications, so hopefully someone gives me a callback soon.
Wish me luck guys X_x.

CHARM✌참

Why Donald Trump is Now President-Elect

Since so many seem to be pointing fingers at each other (third-party voters), instead of the system - the reason why Donald Trump is now our President-elect is simply because he was the democratically selected candidate.

The Republican National Convention left Trump alone by ACCIDENT; because they thought that there was no way anybody would support such a ridiculous, hate-spewing, candidate like him. The Republican establishment was clearly as disconnected to the people's wants as much as the Democratic side was when they decided to back Hillary Clinton as their candidate for presidency.
Whether it was that the DNC believed Hillary was actually the favorable candidate by the people, or (more likely) that they supported a candidate deeply rooted in politics, they dismantled the one candidate who had a chance to beat Trump, Bernie Sanders. The DNC took away from the people what the people wanted.

Trump vs. Hillary was Democracy vs. The System. It was Revolution vs. Oppression.

There was no way those who's voices were stepped on by the DNC would passionately back the candidate they "had" to vote for instead. Reluctance is easily overshadowed by passion.

What this election proved was that there is no way money and political-networks can defeat the power of the people. What it proved was that the DNC screwed itself and it's people over by deciding that it's agenda was more important.

Trump may be a terrible President-elect, but he is who the people spoke for.
If it was The People vs The People, how drastically different would the results have been? Its sad that we will never know.

CHARM✌참

Not to sound repetitive..

But I'm TERRIBLE at this blogging thing. Sigh.
Fortunately, a friend brought up the subject, and we've agreed to try and be consistent by posting every two days. I think this will be a huge challenge (and hopefully accomplishment) for the upcoming year. 

It looks like I pretty much skipped blogging the past year, and just as I wrote in the last post, SO many things have changed. 

In 2016 I (in chronological order):

1. Got my first "real" (full-time) job

2. Adopted a cat

3. Moved out of the basement apartment and back into my parents'

4. Went on vacation to Korea for two weeks

5. Quit my full-time to stay in Korea for a month

Its been just a month since I've come back from Korea, and I'm in a pretty aimless place. I feel like there are so many (but still very limited) ways I can try to live my life. Is this my quarter life crisis?
Currently, I am unemployed and trying to find another full-time job in the industry I quit my first job in. However, after discussing with multiple friends, I think we agree that NYC living may not be for us. There are just so many other states that offer a more relaxed lifestyle, so why struggle to make it here? Its not like we are into the things that make NYC unique.
So while I'm applying to openings here, I am also applying to jobs in the South to well..Start over there before its too late. 

I have to say, from the above list of events in 2016, adopting my cat was the most life-changing and significant. He has been such a ray of sunshine and I can't imagine going day-to-day without him. It was sooo painful being apart from him while I was in Korea D:

Isn't he adorable?

ANYWAYS, I'm excited to fill this blog this year and to see how things have changed next year.
Hope everyone is doing well~

CHARM✌참

SO MANY CHANGES

Wow..I'm terrible at this blogging thing..
Just felt like checking in to record all the changes since the last time I was active here. Looking back at all my posts, I am speechless at how much I "grew up."

I think the most exciting change is my MOVING OUT! WHOOOT!

A friend and I found a two-bedroom basement apartment in Queens; ghetto, but clean and quaint nonetheless. My friend ended up moving back home and I posted a facebook status about the available room. And guess what? My current roommate messaged me right away! She is an awesome teacher at a church I previously attended and started to attend again..Its nice rooming with someone who has similar life philosophies. God certainly does provide!

A very messy, unprepared glimpse of the beginning stages of my place

Is it bad that I don't plan on upgrading my housing anytime soon?
I really think I'd rather build up my savings with the cheap rent and invest in a condo later on. I don't think it makes sense living paycheck to paycheck on a luxurious apartment in the city, when I can do so much more with a humble home.

Speaking of savings, it has dwindled soo much because I was unemployed through this whole process. The last time I had a job was in December - basically 5 months ago.
I ended up moving to be closer to the city, while my parents moved deeper into the suburbs. Even now, it still takes me over an hour to get to Manhattan -_____-. But definitely better than 2+ hours.
Unemployment is really..wow..terribly depressing. Deadlines and motivation went OUT THE WINDOW. Plus the lack of response from all these companies was really discouraging. 

THANK GOD I received an offer last week.
I think this period of unemployment has really given me a reality check. I was so set on finding a higher paying job and not settling for "less", but that dream really isn't worth going broke over. Sure, this job isn't any where near high paying, or relevant to my future career goals, but I really am grateful. Its enough for me to live comfortably for my situation, while splurging once in a while.
As an alternative, I was thinking of going to Korea; I was immediately accepted to the EPIK 2015 program after the interview. Let me know if you want to hear more about that!

At this moment, I really feel that I'm at an okay place in life. I am not wildly successful, or "happy", but am secure with an apartment, job, family, and friends. What is happiness and success, if not stability and security in life?
I don't think I'm doing too bad for a 23 year old. 

I hope to revamp this blog soon, and be more consistent with my posts. I hope to make this blog a routine part of my life. 

Before I check out, a selfie

CHARM✌참